Gemersik Muzik simfoniSEPI

Mummy sayang,

hari demi hari,

kian bertambah lama Mummy pergi

kian itulah pula bertambah pedihnya sayu.

Bergetar di talian biola pilu,

berdebar di dada rebana paluan rindu.

Setiap malam

pada sampai bulan lelah,

setiap fajar

yang menangguhkan tiba

dalam genta muzik luka

aku berlagu tanpa nyanyi

kerana suaraku hilang 
entah ke mana sembunyi.

Tapi aku tahu

di kaki tirai pentas Mummy ada di situ

mendengarkan nyanyi qalbuku nestapa

dalam gemersik muzik simfoniSEPI.

yassinsalleh

1006hrs. Ogos 30. 2011

Pusara Mummy.

Tanah Perkuburan Pengkalan Balai,

Chenor, Maran, Pahang.

Rapsodi Simfoni Nestapa Ini

Memujuk belas hati nan hiba

akankah awan merenjis gerimis

meniti pelangi ke hujung mimpi

di kaki matari yang rebah pagi.

angin bertiup lalu

kusut rambut menutup wajah

terubatkah rindu terleraikah pilu

dalam pedih menanti

salam tak tiba khabar tak sampai

serindit pula terbang hilang entah ke mana.

aduhai!

palingkanlah wajahmu ke arahku

hentikanlah tangisanmu

peganglah erat tanganku

mari kita terapung menari ke awan tinggi

kita cari fatamorgana

kita tinggalkan

rapsodi simfoni nestapa ini.

yassinsalleh

0945 hrs. Ogos 30. 2011

Pusara Mummy.

Tanah Perkuburan Pengkalan Balai,

Chenor, Maran Pahang

Happy Birthday Abang Yasleh Khaliff Amri

Happy birthday, Boy! I can’t believe you are sixteen already. It feels like yesterday that I was holding you in my arms at 3 a.m. begging you to sleep. I think that started the ritual of singing to you as loud as I can until I go hoarse or you got back to sleep. It was funny that neither you crying nor my singing would wake up Mummy, Daddy, or Adik. They would continue to sleep knowing I’d take care of you. Well I did and loved every second of it, even though those 3 a.m. walkabout would made me sleepy in class the next day. Those were crazy times, after so long of asking and praying for another sibling, a baby I could play with, well I know you are not a doll, but I was barely sixteen when I started asking, so to me babies were like live dolls to be played with. I guessed that is why God waited until I was 19 to answer my prayer. Mummy had quite a relapse that year, so I took over right from the start, with Adik as my back up when I had to go to class, she was in form four, her honeymoon year, so we figured a few miss days wouldn’t matter much, to the consternation of her teachers of course.

So there I was taking the first bus out to KL , so I could take the earliest bus to UPM Serdang, meaning I had to wake up at 5 a.m. and then as soon as my classes are over rushing back home to you. I basically had no idea how to deal with a baby then, I learned firsthand from you and whatever little dad knows, and a few lucid moments from Mum. I made a lot of mistakes, I knew that now, but I guess I didn’t screw up too bad, you turned out to be quite a good young man, maybe more you than me, but I am really proud of you.

You have a long way yet to go, and I know you despair sometimes what the future might bring for you, but I believe in you and I know you will find your way somehow. I know you are sad to be celebrating this birthday without Mum, I am sad too, I wish you had more years with her, but the wheel turns when it wants to turn and we have no say in that. Please know that I know Mum loved you very much and she would be very proud of you. Happy 16 birthday, Abang, the family and I love you very much, no matter what.

Posted by rya at 8/18/2011 08:42:00 PM

Source : http://yra76.blogspot.com/2011/08/happy-birthday-abang-yasleh-khaliff.html

Happy Birthday Abang.

I

Happy Birthday Abang.

Hari ini ulang tahun hari kelahiran Abang ke enam belas.

Dah besar anak bujang susu lemok manih Mummy tu.

Malam tadi kali pertama

abang tiup lilin birthday cake tanpa Mummy.

Alahai.

Suka sangatlah Mummy kalau dapat tenguk

Abang pakai baju merah hadiah hari jadinya

Amboihai.

Abang kata pada Adik,

“Abang tak dapat lama dengan Mummy

Macam Along dengan Adik.”

Aduhai.

yassinsalleh

0017 hrs. Ogos 19. 11

La Cassa Pacifica D’ Yasleh

II

Sajak Terakhir Yang Along Bacakan Pada Mummy.

Mummy sayang,

Malam tadi Abang tanya,

“Kenapa Mummy tak bangun tidor?

Abang nak Mummy pulang rumah.”

Tadi masa makan, Abang kata,

“Abang nak makan Mummy masak.

Abang nak Mummy ada sampai Abang besar.

Bila Mummy nak balik rumah, Daddy?”

Aduhai.

Mummy sayang, bangunlah,

Daddy tak dapat menahan

airmata gugur dengar Abang,

Susu Lemok Manih Mummy

cakap macam tu.

Mummy bangunlah.

Lama benar dah Mummy tidor tu.

yassinsalleh

1050 hrs Nov 4. 2010

Katil 17, Wad 7B,

Hospital Serdang

III

Abang Nak Blow Mummy Good Night Kiss.

Mummy dah takde

Rumah ini kosong sangat rasanya.

Suara Mummy dah takde.

Setiap kamar segenap ruang terasa sunyi sangat.

Masakan Mummy dah takde

meja ini hidangannya semua dah tak sedap.

Mummy dah takde,

anak-anak hilang suara,

Daddy hilang metafora,

TV hilang gambar,

Lagu hilang irama.

Malam tadi Abang tanya,

“Mummy nampak Abang tak sekarang ni, Daddy?

Abang nak blow Mummy good night kiss.”

yassinsalleh

2358 hrs. Nov 9. 10

Sanggar  Simfoni Nestapa,

Kuala Lumpur

IV

"Abang Nak Rendang Mummy Masak"

Mummy sayang,

Raya qorban ini Mummy takde.

Makanya,

takdelah rendang,

takdelah nasi himpit,

takdelah sambal kacang.

Takdelah kami beraya di rumah.

Abang tak tahan

mendengar takbir raya.

Adik tak sanggup masuk ke dapur

tempat di mana Mummy terduduk jatuh.

Along tak boleh melihat meja tempat Mummy menyiapkan adunan rempah masak rendang itu kosong.

Daddy tak cukup kuat

menahan sebak di dada

melihatkan anak-anak demikian.

Susu Lemok Manih Mummy kata,

“Abang nak rendang Mummy masak.”

yassinsalleh

1601 hrs. Nov 18. 10

Taman Impian Emas,

Skudai,  Johor Bharu.

V

“Abang Nak Mummy Tenguk Abang Kuat.”

Mummy sayang.

Esuk,

hari ke empat puluh Mummy pulang.

Dengan rindu yang amat

kami datang

menatang duka dalam pasrah.

Kita jumpa esuk

ya Mummy sayang

Abang kata

dia akan cuba tidak menangis,

“Abang nak Mummy tenguk abang kuat.”

Aduhai.

yassinsalleh

1215 hrs Dis 13. 10

perjalanan kl-chenor

Mengenangkan Piatuku

Menu semalam.

Jeruk maman,

patah-patahkan lada

peroikan sejuring belacan

gaulkan ikan bakar tawar

ubu rebus panas-panas

ulamnya petai belalang muda

makan di pangkin hujung halaman

minumannya air nira kabung

muziknya desir angin menggesel daun-daun

lagunya nyanyi unggas di rimbunan pohon.

Aduhai nikmatnyalah jadi penghuni alam

Jauh dari kota duka

Jauh dari tersendiri dalam seloka

orang-orang berebutan sarang.

Tapi hari ini

ada nasi  dan boleh minum kopi.

Aduhai.

Leganyalah sengsara diri

Masih ada kawan mengenangkan piatuku

Kalaupun mati bukannya kerana tak makan.

Terima kasih Wak.

yassinsalleh

1615 hrs. dis 22. 2010

ponson, manchis, bentong, Pahang.

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Dua Citra

Dua Citra

Malam Lailatul Qadar

Tersandar di dinding

kekenyangan

dan

Terbaring di tepi longkang

kebuluran.

yassinsalleh

0059 hrs. ogos 13. 2010

rumah tak bernombor, di taman tak bernama

Unaware

Surely time has pass enough

and taken the edges of pain away

but from time to time

I’d be caught unaware

and a thought

or a memory

flickered by

and it seems I’ve just lost you

and tears run down

and my heart ache

with the pain

I miss you Mum

all the time

I’ve learnt to deal with that

it is this stealthy pain

that’s hidden

that I don’t know what to do with.

Would it always be this way?

I wonder?

rya

3/8/11

12.46 p.m

Source: http://yra76.blogspot.com/

Belas Syawal Yang Mandul

Ramadhan

amal ibadat sarat berkat

menuntut

amal jariah pemenuh hakikat.

yang melarat melata

merata-rata

tunggu sajalah LailatulQadar

itulah satu-satunya lagi yang masih mungkin.

tiada lagi yang berbaki menjariahimu

selepas membeli tiket temasya tamat bulan lapar

dan lunas tuntas

belian pesta makan-makan

sekujur malam seluruh siang sepanjangnya Ramadhan.

Ciritera hiba,

belas Syawal yang mandul.

yassinsalleh

1058 hrs sept 5. 2010

SanggarPCP anjung_Ponson,

Manchis, Bentong, Pahang.

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